
At Alfredo Jaar’s Park of the Laments at the IMA, in the midst of a long bike ride, cloudless sky, feeling the kind of happy that you can never explain to people because there is no particular reason for the feeling: I just like riding my bike. It wakes me up. Opens the eyes of my eyes.
This feeling is such a close cousin of the kind of sadness I feel driving at night by myself—that pure almost pleasant sadness that you also can’t ever explain to anyone.
Anyway it all reminds me of this poem by ee cummings. Nothing particularly fancy about it. It just captures the feeling for me.
i thank You God for most this amazing day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything which is natural which is infinite which is yes
(i who have died am alive again today, and this is the sun’s birthday;this is the birth day of life and love and wings:and of the gay great happening illimitably earth)
how should tasting touching hearing seeing breathing any-lifted from the no of all nothing-human merely being doubt unimaginable You?
(now the ears of my ears awake and now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
from ‘Ode on Melancholy’ by John Keats
— “His soul shall taste the sadness of her might” …oh Keats…how did you do it?